#i have actually cried so much today

[daveys-angel01]

crying about gavin and freelancer again

[kirby-the-gorb]

[toxicrevolver]

Tagged by @smushedmuffin to take this uquiz

Thanks for the tag!!!

My day has been far too long to explain to y’all how badly this has called me out right now.

Tagging (me pressure): @serendipminie @loveable-sea-lemon @we-survive-endlessly @haahka and anyone else who wants to participate can blame me

[the-art-of-sanshoku]

Tokucember Day 19: Anniversary

I didn't really know how to interpret this one but uh Kuuga turns 25 next month sooooo old goichi for you today. Ichijo would be turning 51 this year, cute right? In 2025 godai has a smartphone but hasn't quite mastered selfie taking :)

Full pic under the cut:

[yujeong]

Sammon watched the pool scene of kpts episode 14, found it amazing and said "I want to write that in a show, too." Unfortunately, she never got to watch the post-credit hospital scene.

[illumiiiz]

okay so I’m also adopting alluka. I have three children now

[james-spooky]

this is a test

[frostios]

(guy whos been drawing all day) man i wanna draw....

[dreadfutures]

🥺❤️ to old friends renewed

[transmogrified-in-the-void]

Very happy I'm going back to therapy next week

[carefulfears]

txf30 day 4: favorite dynamic (besides the obvious): scully/mulder/skinner

y’all mind if i ramble for a second?? there are so many connections that are so important to this story, but i always come back to these three. i think everything does.

i say that memento mori is the most loving episode of the series, but when i think about that one, it’s not even the kiss in the hallway that stays with me. it’s skinner coming in to work, the first time scully was in the hospital, and finding mulder sitting in his office. and he’s just been sitting there. bypassed the secretary (lol), and just sat and waited. he doesn’t have anywhere else to go.

and the way that skinner tells him, no. don’t do it to yourself under any circumstances. that he is not to risk himself to try to save scully. ultimately, it’s not mulder that made the deal with the devil, it’s skinner who didn’t follow his own advice. (gave up everything he has, to save them both).

and these are just two weirdos who work for him in the basement!! he doesn’t owe them anything. but he’s the one there, at the end, no matter what. he’s the one who comes to get them when they’re hurt, or lost, or need help. they’re his emergency contacts, the people who show up, the people who advocate for him. the people who know him. (the bigfoot division are a.d. skinner’s silly rabbits etc etc etc)

in iwtb, after six years away, it’s skinner who comes to get scully, on the side of the road, next to mulder’s flipped car. tells her that they will find him, that he’s okay, to breathe. it’s skinner that holds mulder on the ground, in the end.

when mulder went back to bellefleur, it's skinner that scully sent with him. that girl has never trusted a single soul to so much as breathe mulder's air, but "i won't let you go alone," is immediately followed by skinner packing the car.

like trish said last night:

i think telling scully he "lost" mulder was the hardest thing he ever did. skinner loves mulder too, but mulder is scully's entire world. and this time around, he won't let scully be alone the way mulder was.

(and the kindest thing scully ever did: squeezing his hand, saying "i already heard.")

(skinner returns the favor: he tells mulder about william, so that scully doesn't have to.)

my favorite moment in requiem is the final scene, the two of them crying together. the only two people. the only two people who know.

when she tells him that she's pregnant, he's the first to know. the only person to know, for most of her pregnancy. 18 years later, he's still the first person thinking of their baby, looking out for him.

honestly, it always comes back to sein und zeit for me. when after 7 years, after 27 years, mulder says that it's just too much, and he wants to go home. he wants time away from work. the sequence in the car: mulder in the backseat, skinner behind the wheel, scully on the passenger's side. for so many years, mulder had to be searching, so that he wouldn't be alone. but now he stands in front of two people who love him, and admits to needing a break. to wanting it to stop. he's guided, he's guarded.

skinner is a hardass. it's not easy to manage their madness. it's not easy to write the footnotes, to be the person waiting, in this particular story. but like he tells mulder, 14 years after they last worked together: not a day goes by where he doesn't just wish they were there, trying to make things better.

[persephoneflouwers]

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[seekingthestars]

little floof has the best possible time at con, proceeds to spend the next month crying about it

[foreveralwaysanauthor]

It's been a while, hasn't it? Between work, taking care of loved ones, and trying to fight my way through seasonal depression, these last few months have been long and exhausting.

Of course, not all of it has been rough. I've made my way up to teacher status at work (hell yeah, extra pay!), and my mom was finally accepted for widow benefits after a 10-year struggle with the state. Some things have been great!

Others, not so much. My Great-Uncle Bernie (86), my grandpa's younger brother, passed away recently, leaving only my Great-Aunt Margaret (93) as the only sibling out of what was once twelve children. I've been her caregiver for the last six years, but I was the sole caregiver for both of them from just after Thanksgiving (November 28th) to the 12th.

Needless to say, it hit me hard.

I've also come to the realization that, once Auntie Margie passes, I'll be part of my family's second-oldest generation. Granted, I'll be the second-youngest member of that generation, but still... it hits different.

There are some other positives that I'd like to mention, though! Apart from my job and my mom's ten-year-late victory, I mean. I started up a D&D group in the after-school program I teach in, for one. I write all of the campaigns on my own, draw all the maps and battle arenas by hand, and print the material for it all, so that takes up a lot of free time, but the kids love it, so I don't mind it as much. We started off in October with a short Stranger Things campaign before moving onto Home Alone for Thanksgiving into Christmas. Now, we're doing Five Nights at Freddy's: Security Breach, and I'm realizing that I'd actually love to have a little one-shot with our characters in that type of setting. Maybe on one of my days off I'll do a playthrough of the game or something and see if I can pinpoint where I could see everyone 👀

Also, I finally saved enough money for a good-quality laptop and a new phone! Ya girlie now has a pink iPhone 15 and a shiny HP Pavilion! I know it's nothing huge, but it's a nice accomplishment for me, so I wanted to share it. I'm hoping to save up for a flight to visit my family's homestead in County Cork, Ireland, and take a trip through different areas of the UK, visiting friends and places my relatives have stayed, as well as maybe seeing a performance of Starlight Express. It's a long shot, but who knows?

Now that things are starting to go back to normal again, I'm going to try to relax a bit more and focus on what makes me happy, not what I think will make everyone else happy. It'll be a long road, but for the sake of my sanity and happiness, I look forward to the journey.

I'm sorry this has taken me so long, but I'm here now, and I'm fighting off the seasonal bullshit as best as I can. Spring can't come soon enough, but I'm willing to fight for myself for once, so that's new and, for the most part, exciting.

For the first time in a long time, I look forward to what this chapter of my life has in store for me.

Hopefully, it's a good read.

Here's to 2025.

[spacemancharisma]

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[cosmogyros]

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